Following Your Impulse
TACOallan: Here
is something that I have been observing lately. It may take a bit to
describe it: The impulse to take an action arises in me, from an idea
or insight, or excitement about something. My Story Teller starts running
it through the maze. And as we said, the action never comes out the
other side.
TACOallan: One
of the favorite stories we tell ourselves is that we don't know how
something will turn out, and we have to know before we can act. So we
wait, until we know all the possibilities, and how to control the outcome.
TACOallan: Including
the guilt about hurting other people, or making them angry, or disappointing
them, etc.
TACOallan: Now,
here is what I am seeing:
TACOallan: Everything
that I need to "know" in order to manifest that which arises in me is
contained in the impulse that arises, and without resistance it will
manifest itself.
Camellia: Do you
have an example?
TACOallan: Yes.
I met a statute of Jesus at a workshop I taught in Portland, Oregon
a month ago. And I knew that I wanted that same statue in my garden.
TACOallan: Immediately
my Story Teller started with "You will never be able to afford it. It
is a dumb idea. Forget it," etc. "It is just a fantasy."
TACOallan: I did
not believe the Story Teller, because I believe that everything I need
to "know" about how to manifest that statue in my garden is contained
in the original impulse to create it here.
TACOallan: I said
"yes" to the impulse. I found the sculptor. He offered me a great price,
invited me to visit, and the action began. TACOallan: Then the next
day someone who had been at the workshop sent a donation to "Allan's
Jesus in the Garden" fund, spontaneously.
TACOallan: She
wrote, "When I saw the light in your eyes when you described your dream
I knew you would make it happen, so I want to be the first to contribute."
TACOallan: It
is a bronze Jesus, about 7 feet tall, that smiles at you when you look
into his loving eyes. { : > )
TACOallan: I am
already 1% of the way to my $ goal!
TACOallan: Saying
Yes to Life as it arises in us, puts us in the flow of Life, and that
Life IS us.
CAMELLIA: Are
you saying then, to take action on any idea that arises in us? That
the idea wouldn't arise if we weren't meant to take action on it?
TACOallan: Yes,
although of course, Camellia, "any" idea could lead to trouble. We do
need the wisdom of discrimination, but yes, if it is in us, then it
is ours.
CAMELLIA: So how
do we distinguish between the judge and discrimination and a genuine
desire to take action?
TACOallan: Ah,
Camellia, good question. And that discrimination results from the work
of clearing and cleaning the channels of communication, inside and out.
Tortilla: I hesitate
often, I am afraid of making a mistake.
TACOallan: The
Judge will tell us "no, wait, be sure."
TACOallan: Life
says "Yes."
TACOallan: If
we are indeed Life, then we are saying "Yes" to ourselves. Life is leading
Life in the manifestation of Life.
Tortilla: Wow.
TACOallan: There
is no "NO" in that. The nature of Life is YES.
TACOallan: How
could LIFE possibly not want me to have Jesus in my garden?
CAMELLIA: I get
the words. I just don't get how to apply it to my life. TACOallan: I
understand, Camellia. It is only by continuing to clear the channels
that the words will make sense in your heart. The words can only be
a description of a goal, but not actually the map to get there.
TACOallan: The
map is in your recapitulation, your awakening, and your learning to
love yourself... AND the Personal Power that you reclaim in the process.
TACOallan: It
is really more of a journey than a destination. And you are on that
journey, all of you reading. Me too.
TACOallan: I had
a head start. So I can look back from my place on the journey and describe
what it seems like I did to get here. Make sure that you don't stop
to worship at the signs I put out, but simply use them to guide you
if they are useful.
Camellia: Does
the path ever end?
TACOallan: I like
to believe that it widens and widens, until the path is the no path,
or the path that is everything.
Camellia: Thank
you, TACOallan.
Tortilla: Yes,
thank you.
TACOallan: My
pleasure. Thank you all for being he